『Mama’s daily』

ママちゃんのひとりごと

『Mama’s daily』



When I was single

I liked wearing heels



Although I didn’t like the taste of alcohol

I liked the joyful mood at a drinking party that I would go with my friends



I put my favourite songs to my Walkman

And I was listening to them whenever I wanted to



I also liked reading books on a train just by myself



I often took a bubble bath and relaxed



I used to go to a hair salon at least every other month



I liked putting makeup on

And I also liked going to a movie



Buying the latest fashion magazine

Listening to a popular song

Wearing trendy clothes

Going to a hot spot anytime I wanted to




But now I’m



Wearing muddy sneakers

Bringing a huge bag filled with diapers and changing clothes for my kids

With no makeup

Binding my hair at the back



Everyday

I’m walking to a park with my kids taking their hands



The music I listen to has changed to Twinkle Twinkle Little Star from Taylor

Swift



I’m checking letters from a kindergarten or my mother and child health

handbook instead of the latest fashion magazine



Thinking of what to make for dinner tonight

What to do after my daughter gets back home from a kindergarten



And whether laundry clothes will get dry as well as if it will be sunny

tomorrow for her field trip



Since I had ended up scolding my son fussing hard before he went to sleep

last night

I should try to put him to sleep early for him tonight

Try not to get mad

Peacefully



Thinking about something like this





Since another day comes right after, every single day

I can no longer remember

A clean tidy room

Those nights I can sleep through to the morning

Or last time I could take time to put mascara on



Right

Because I can’t remember these things anymore

I forget these things before I know that

I forget that those days won’t last forever




When I would get to have a relaxing time in the bath



I would recall



When you and I faced each other and counted numbers

Echoed your lovely voice





When I would get to sleep tossing and turning as much as I want to



I would long for



Your warmth which I would never feel that close even if I roll around on the

entire bed





When I would get to play my favourite CD whenever I want to



I would cry



For remembering your laughter filled in this whole room





When I would get to take time for makeup as much as I want



I would cry



For your tiny little hands that pulled my clothes

Climbed up on my lap,

And your hands that destruct every single thing I would do





When I would get to wear heels whenever I want to



I would cry



For remembering chasing you laughing out loud and running around

Us being covered with mud after

The sky that you and I looked up at together





When those days that I wash only your dad’s and my clothes would come



I would cry



That I don’t see all of your sandy socks

Peed pants

And a shirt soaked with milk in a laundry basket





When the day I would vacuum the rooms where I don’t hear your footsteps



I would cry



That I notice all the flakes of cookies left

Small parts of toys

And your thin and soft hair had gone





When I would get to do whatever and whenever I want to



I would cry



For remembering you calling out and looking for me all the time




I wonder how long I get to have them

I wonder how much time left there is to get to be right beside you



Then

While I had been thinking about such things

Another day passed by





For now



We spend time with our children every day

That makes the moment you can use time just for yourself so special

And we cherish “my time” that allows us to enjoy just being ourselves





But if we think about our life

What is truly special is the days that we could live with our children



But we forget that



Somehow

We spend time every day as if it will last forever



We would know someday

That these hectic days were studded with countless lovely moments



We would notice after all the things are gone



Our children had been leaving us a lot of memories by all energy



Until today since they were born to this world





Our every day is



The days we get to be a mom of our children



Until our lives will burn away

We will always be a mom for our children

A mom who will always think about

Care about

And love her children no matter how far apart from them



But someday we would know

How short it is to get to be “mama” right beside our children




Today again

You look back at me with an innocent smile

And run into my arms calling me “mama”


I will never forget it



Never



Never



The yesterday you and I laughed together at your bangs I cut too short

The today I cried for scolding you

The night I laughed at you tossing around in bed

The whiteness of the white clovers you picked for me



Myself who have been forgiven by you



The every day you have been with me



I will never ever forget it




Though I like fashion magazines

I also knew that I could be moved by how beautiful children’s books can be



Though I like wearing heels

I have come to like how comfortable wearing sneakers is



I used to care about myself more than anything

To me like that

My children taught me that there is something more precious than my life

could exist



I’m grateful to you

from the bottom of my heart






Don’t forget

That here is mama’s daily today, too

Don’t forget

That here is the today you can be with your children

please hold your children tight

Today’s children that you could see only today







Written by LICO  (Instagram:@licomamachan)

English translation by Tomoko Lui  (Instagram:@tomokotsugami)

 

 

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【子どもを愛しているのになぜか上手くいかない】
【子どもの気持ちが分からない】

そんな悩みを抱えるたくさんの方々から

「子どもの反応が変わった」

「子どもとのやり取りが楽しくなった」と嬉しい感想が届いています。

LICOメソッド実践者の声はこちらから読めます
私も驚くほどの変化の声を、是非読んでみてください(*^^*)

今日のみなさんと子どもさんとの時間が愛おしいものとなりますように。。。♡

LICO

作家。ブロガー。
保護者のみならず保育士・幼稚園教諭・学校教師・児童養護施設職員など、保育・養育のプロが相談に訪れる「心の土台を育む子育てアドバイザー」。

自身の子どもの頃の経験を基に構築されたママちゃん育児法を軸として「子どもたちに【愛されている実感】を」を信念とし、子どもたちと穏やかに向き合うためのヒントや、我が家の日々の出来事などをブログで紹介しています。

怒り方も大切。
叱り方も大切。
でも  やっぱり一番大切なことは
その「怒る」でも「叱る」でもないなんてことない日常が
ママの笑顔と愛に溢れていること 。 

自分の真ん中に『愛』だけしっかり持って
あとは  ゆるく生きましょう♡

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